It’s That Deep…
For the single motha…
My disobedience led to sin and heartache.
I made a conscious choice to have sex before I got married.
Seems like a small thing.
But now my son is maneuvering through challenges he was never supposed to face because he should have been born in a marital union.
Truth is I caused his father to join me in my sin.
Sure he could have had sex with anyone and it wasn’t forced.
But I didn’t uphold the standards God set for me because I didn’t care, so I ensnared him.
Sitting here on the floor of my grandparent’s room I’m starting to understand the weight of sin.
Understanding what it means to have a broken and contrite heart.
Understanding the words “against you and you only have I sinned”.
Understanding the amount of pride I’ve been walking in.
Because “being a single mother is normal” ,“no one is surprised anymore”, and “everyone is having sex and kids before marriage it’s really not that deep”.
But I’m not everyone.
I’m called.
I’m His.
It is that deep.
We, His daughters are called to be “other”.
He has a standard and for good reason.
My “call to action” is a call to repentance.
I pray at the right moment when your heart is tender enough to receive his correction, His mercy…
You too find a floor, or a closet, or behind the tinted windows of your car.
And you repent.
Then get up, wash your face, and allow Him to lead you.
For He has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.
I love you, mean it
-Ja’Nelle
